Another Milestone...but where's the journey?

Today it's been 23 years since I came on this Earth...pretty tough job...i mean this journey...23 milestones and now when i ask myself where m going, i dont have a clear answer for myself...well, this day was different from my previous birthdays...It was a bit similar like any other day...I had no answers for questions like, so,what special did u do today? or what are your plans for this day?

After all these years, when I look back...all the things that I was proud of were mocking at me...friendships, what I used to call my maturity and my wisdom...everything...

I learnt few words today...CHANGE...nothing is permanent...the only permanent thing is change...we should understand if happiness isnt permanent then neither is sadness...our sorrows come when we think that things are permanent...once we realize their volatilility there is no space for grief and sorrow...take each and every things equally important...coz nothing's is going to stay with you forever...and dont surrender urself to change...change shudnt stop us or saden us but shud give us courage to accept whats new...

PURPOSE...everything's got purpose...everything...its our task to figure that out...the purpose of life is living life with purpose...and our only obligation towards life is to fulfil that purpose...anything that comes between us and our purpose is super fluous and needs to be thrown away...and meanwhile dont forget to stop and see the beauty of PRESENT...DESTINATION isnt important ...but JOURNEY is...three important points to remember throughout life...most important time...NOW...most important person...the person u r dealing with now...most important work...the work u r doing NOW...

PARADOX..life is a paradox...it is a mystery, alright...but no need to waste ur time solving it out...

ANGER...one of the natural emotions...its not bad...to be angry with the right person at right time and to the right degree is very critical...i have learnt today that we just need to hold ourselves few minutes, when anger is rising..that moment is critical...if we can stay calm and controled that initial few moments...we can easily prevent the volcano from errupting...par ye bachcho ka kaam nai hai..it requires great wisdom and patience...after that we can hardly recall for what we were boiling our blood...it feels so gud...and moreover it prevents us from the shame and guilt of the consequence...just be quiet...just silent from inside...recall anything good...swearing can also work...anything...but it works...just prevent that moment when anger is building inside you and rest is automatic...

there are many other things that i learnt in these 2 -3 days...a sort of b'day gift from god?..maybe...well then i'll be sharing them next time...till then let me try my new findings...m not gud at being regular...and regularity and consistency is required to move forward in a journey...its upto me to fill my days with something meaningful...and not be empty like m now...

Shabad Hazare: worth singing of thousands shabads

Once I was offering my daily prayer as any other day...few minutes later i got a quick silent thought(thats obvious...after all who is 100 per concentrated while meditating...he he)...It was,"do i know what i am reading?". Kya faayada jab mujhe un shabdo ka matlab hi nai pata jo main roz padhti hun...So after my prayer time i sat and looked for the meanings...usually there are 6 short paaths that I recite...I came across the meaning of Shabad Hazare paath...and for the first time I felt the power of shabd...words...

The poem(not the whole paath...but the starting phrases can be called so)was written by Guru Arjun Dev(not guru then)...His father Guru Ram Das ji were invited in his nephew's wedding. Due to his other committments he cudnt go, so he wished to send one of his sons...The others excused themselves giving some or the other reasons...Arjun when asked just replied,"I only desire to do what you wish".Guru was pleased and sent him and asked him not to come unless he calls him...

Days passed but Arjun wasnt called...he was becoming more and more restless...the only thing he could think of was his father...he wrote a letter to him which was like...

"mayraa man lochai gur darsan taa-ee
bilap karay chaatrik kee ni-aa-ee
tarikhaa na utrai saaNt na aavai bin darsan sant pi-aaray jee-o
ha-o gholee jee-o ghol ghumaa-ee gur darsan sant pi-aaray jee-o. "
My heart longs for the guru as a thirsty pied-cuckoo longs for water...My thirst is not quenched, and I can find no peace without seeing him...I, my soul is a sacrifice to my loving guru.

This letter was kept by his elder brother in fear that he might not get the guru's gaddi...When no reply came Arjun wrote another letter...

"tayraa mukh suhaavaa jee-o sahj Dhun banee
chir ho-aa daykhay saaringpaanee
Dhan so days jahaa tooN vasi-aa mayray sajan meet muraaray jee-o
ha-o gholee ha-o ghol ghumaa-ee gur sajan meet muraaray jee-o"
Your face is so beautiful and your baani is so humble that imparts wisdom.It has been so long that this saarang bird hasnt seen a glimpse of water..blessed is that land where you dwell..oh my friend...I, my soul is a sacrifice to you....

Again this letter was hidden by his elder brother...this time Arjun wrote third letter and numbered it 3...

"ik gharhee na miltay taa kalijug hotaa
hun kad milee-ai pari-a tuDh bhagvantaa
mohi rain na vihaavai need na aavai bin daykhay gur darbaaray jee-o
ha-o gholee jee-o ghol ghumaa-ee tis sachay gur darbaaray jee-o"
Whenever m not with you for even a single minute,the Kalyug dawns on me...When will I meet you? I cannot endure the night and I cannot sleep without your sight...I, my soul is a sacrifice to you...

This time the messenger was successful in reaching the guru...when guru saw the numbered letter..he asked for the previous two...nothing is hidden from guru...he called his eldest son and asked or the letters...he read them and quickly sent men to bring Arjun back...when he came back Arjun placed his head against his father's chest for a long time and the guru held him in his arms...The guru then asked Arjun to finish the poem by writing the last stanza...he wrote

"bhaag ho-aa gur sant milaa-i-aa
parabh abhinaasee ghar meh paa-i-aa
sayv karee pal chasaa na vichhurhaa jan naanak daas tumaaray jee-o
ha-o gholee jee-o ghol ghumaa-ee jan naanak daas tumaaray jee-o.||4||"
By good fortune I have met my guru...I have found immortal guru in home of my own self...I will serve you forever and will never be separated from you for even a second..I, my soul is a sacrifice to you...

Guru Ramdas ji was so pleased by his son that he granted him with the guru gaddi...
This paath is so humbly written and beautifully describes longing for the almighty...I wasnt expecting this...and moreover I wasnt expecting those wet eyes of mine...I experienced the love and the pain while I read it and I experience it every day whenever I get the chance to recite this paath...There must have been many mistakes in my writing the meaning...I apologize.
This was a lifetime experience for me...It was like the whole drama was being held infront of my eyes...

We, all the living souls are females and the only male, our only lover is the almighty...Our loneliness can only be filled in by him...he only can make us complete...truely this paath is worth reciting 1000 shabads...It was a magic that i experienced...somebody was with me...for an instant everything seemed as easy as eating a chocolate...No wonder why words have gained so much power...thanx to human civilization!!

So here I am...Doing what I thought was the least important and the only last thing on this earth to do...So, never underestimate any task, rite? I always believed in finding good in others...this is the ultimate way to experience god on this earth...so, now i learn to find good in every job...ok fine!

To start writing blog did not prove to me an easy thing...it underwent long thinking process;)...then came a series of omens( i know i sound weird)...to begin with, the day i made a sure statement in my mind to write blog, i got a call from one of my friends who has for long motivated me to start such a trouble...so i need not say that my this step is dedicated to my mentor...

Oh yes, the second omen was yet another surprise...thousands of minutes later when i was browsing through my newspaper i came across the speaking tree which read"A Blogger's Thoughts On Divine Communication"...It read "The Blogsphere has only one state, that of shunya, because it is virtual.If all of us start living our lives just like a blog, we shall aspire to reach the state of shunya.Instead of pushing ourselves hard in transforming from the state of unhappiness to happiness, we shall find solace in the truth that happiness is as virtual as unhappiness.We shall realize that true freedon is not a destination but the sacred journey called life itself."
So? So i thought better to dive in and take a look inside the waters than to just sit on the beach and ponder on what is inside the ocean...

And now on this fine day...My mom's b'day( i miss her a lot)...I announce my entry in this so called blogsphere...Hope it helps me in finding myself...my that very self, i lost few years back...the self i still miss in my life...and yes, I regret losing her.